The next day, I recline on a dock jetting out into the small pond; hands behind my head, not thinking, knees bent, lower back comfortable, and eyes closed**. I felt the air blow across my face, lift my hair gently around my forehead and cheek. My breath came and went gentle and natural. The sun light felt soft on my whole being. As the wind picked up and I opened my eyes to see a completely in tact spider web floating across the sky. I could hardly believe I was seeing something so extraordinary while doing something so seemingly mundane. In truth, the only reason I even saw the web was because the way the sun was gleaming on its threads. I laughed to myself thinking about how insight is like this...at first it can be overwhelming, it is often fleeting, only available when there is sacred illumination simultaneously with one's eyes are "fully open". Even now, I think of how incredibly, incredibly captivating the complexity and simplicity of that spider web was. I think about how it is easy to allow insight to enchant us instead of inform us...the idea that being enchanted takes less discipline that allowing ourselves to be informed.
This year I cannot go to the vipassana held by Jesse and Michele because of a work commitment. I am disappointed. I am looking around for other opportunities that are closer to home. My hope is to find a community who understand (and practice) that the full value of insight meditation takes place through actions off the cushion. If I cannot find such a community, I will just have to co-create one with others.
**This is a drawing my friend Cassandra created while she was listening to me tell her my experience.